For as long as I can remember, I have always been a certifiable
©. Today, however, was a new day--perhaps a step toward a brighter, phobic-free future. I ran across a spider--one of the biggest spiders I've ever seen. After an eventful day of grocery shopping with my kids, I was on my way inside the house when I saw him. He was fat... and hairy... and BIG... and I froze, unable to breath or move as we eyed one another. His buggy eyes were huge, and I have to admit, I've never taken time to actually look at a spider and I have never seen a spider look at me, but he did. He didn't act afraid or aggressive. He casually raised his face toward mine and literally "regarded" me as I stood there, frozen in fear. He tentatively crawled toward me, his eyes never leaving mine, and just as I was about to squish him, my husband joined me on the porch. When I pointed out our terrifying visitor, my husband was amazed at how unique this spider was. He and the spider considered one another for several moments and then my husband said, "I've never seen a spider look at me. He almost looks like he wants to be our friend. We can't kill him." So, with the understanding that my husband would quickly remove our furry "friend", I allowed the spider to live. My kids were overjoyed and quickly named him "Pete". My husband removed the spider from the porch and I felt wonderful knowing that I had overcome my fear long enough to allow the offending creature a new chance at life. And...I believed that was the end of it. However, earlier this evening, I stumbled across "Pete" once more...Yes... the same spider was standing just outside my door, looking for all the world like a lost puppy in desperate need of a new home. I was half tempted to just end it and stomp on the poor little guy, but instead, I slammed the door in his face and watched, trembling, through the window as he climbed the door frame and made a cozy home just above our porch. I'm just not sure what I think about our unwanted house guest, but for now, I suppose I can learn to live with "Pete".
--- As long as he keeps his distance.